I sometimes have moments where I am able to reflect on all the things in my life that have helped to shape and mold who I am today. Most times I can say that they were good and other times I should have made better choices about who or what I let influence me and change me. I am, however, happy to say that I am better than I could be and I truly feel I am on the right path in my life. No matter how long it might be or how difficult it has been or will be again I am glad I chose it.
Ok, the point I am getting to is that I have seen a lot changing in the world and in our country. I feel a sense of urgency that has always preceded important decisions in my life. I hope that I am getting better at recognizing the promptings of my creator and his ability to teach me as he trys to guide me. He is so good at knowing exactly what I need to understand the path I need to take. I just have to be willing to feel pain and discomfort because of the path I have to take to reach what purpose God has for me at that time.
The reason I know this is because of all the things in my past that have been hard to go through, but have brought me to where I am today. The only thing that can make these experiences worth it is commiting to continue on the journey and keep God's plan for me as the top motivator in my actions.
I am just as falable as the next person out there. I always have to keep evaluating my life to see if what I am doing at the time is a reflection of my beliefs and convictions or a product of my imperfect temporal desires and faults. Sometimes I review myself and come up short. It is at those times that I have had to be willing to admit my flaws and decided to adjust my course or my priorities. It is this self analysis that has been both a blessing and a stressor in my life. I am glad that I do it, but I am also glad that I have support in recognizing the better parts of me.
My life has been filled with people, sometimes fleeting and sometimes long-term, that show me the great person they see. I am so greatful for all those people who have been that for me at times in my life. If you are one of those people... know that I recognized and appreciated the love and caring you shared with me.
My desire in life is to be that person for someone else who needs to know that even though they mess up they are still important and worth the effort they put into themselves. I know that it is our knowledge of who we are and where we came from that gives us the hope of something better than today. It is this that drives me to seek the best in myself and the best example to follow. It is this that brings me closer to my God and Heavenly Father. No matter what is happening at the time I know that he sees, hears and focuses on me. He is my constant companion in my journey through life. My choice is to make it a good or bad experience for us both. I hope I can make it better rather than worse.
I know it sound funny, but I am glad that I can talk about these things in a forum that might open me up to criticism and still be able to do it anyway. I hope that if you read this you can relate or understand me just a little bit more. chanel.
